Can somebody help interpret this dream?

K, so I know this is long but please bear with me. Some things you should know before attempting to interpret: Lindsey is my ex. We broke up over a year ago after she had some mental instability problems. She's also the one who introduced me to "jenna" and her and "jenna" do not get along. "Jenna" is the girl I like, she used to be friends with lindsey but after the whole mentally unstable thing, she hates her. She also doesn't like that her now ex used to cheat on her with lindsey. Her real name isn't jenna, but that's just easier. I already know I like girls. Jenna and I are currently friends but I've liked her since while I was with lindsey and she seems to like me, she's even said she likes me. Desiree is just a girl from school who hates me and constantly torments me, mostly because of my lack of friends and cuz of my uality Oh, and some parts may seem a little ual.. Just a warning lol. Ok so enough of the background info, riight? Im somewhere w/ lindsey, not really sure where. Im standing behind her with my arms wrapped around her body, and we're holding hands. Im not sure why im even hanging out with her, let alone why we're standing like that. It's raining a little bit and I kiss her shoulder where a raindrop has fallen. Lindsey gets startled and turns to face me, I ure her I have absolutely no feelings for her. Then she kisses my hand and laughs, so I kiss her forehead, then she kisses my cheek. In a totally joking way, I kiss her nose and she goes cross eyed, and isn't laughing. The rain has stopped as she tilts her head upward and looks at me, with those eyes and I remember what I once felt, but I push it away. But then she's kissing me. Not just kissing, but the way we used to kiss. She's kissing me like she means it, as though she loves me. It starts to get heated as she takes off my clothes. I haven't felt somebody's kiss or touch in so long, I just go with it. I begin to take off her shirt and run my hands along her body and kiss her stomach and chest. Then she pulls me back up and is kissing me and taking my bra off as I continue to run my hands along her body. Then a door opens and somebody walks in and yells. Then im im running down a street as I fix my clothes. Then somebody has posted something online about what happened. I notice that jenna hasn't been online yet and I text her to say I'm sorry, but I don't yet tell her the story. I get back to somewhere where there is a suitcase waiting for me. I meet up with jenna as we preparwe to board a cruise ship. As we're running up the steps to board the ship, desiree shows up and says something about jenna that im pretty sure wasn't nice. I turn and walk over to desiree and say "excuse me, she's my girl, so why don't you shut the f*ck up" and I turn and walk back to jenna. She asks "what was that all about? The girl was kinda hot" im slightly offended by the last remark, but say that des is a b*tch. Then I apologize for labelling jenna as my girl but she says nothing else about it. As we board the ship, jenna still has no clue about what happened between lindsey and I. We walk over to a sign in table and jenna asks where the girls on the cruise are. I look to the balcony above us and notice a large group of girls and point them out to jenna. Then we're walking upstairs and trying to find our room. As I look for the room, jenna goes off somewhere, I guess to ask for help in finding our room. I walk past a room with an open door and one of the girls yells out to me from within the room. The says that if I go to the end of the hall there should be some open rooms. So as I am walking toward the room, I run into jenna and I tell her where the rom is. She just smiles and takes hold of my hand. Her smile as she holds my hand nearly causes my heart to break because I feel so guilty and feel that I cheated on her with lindsey, but jenna and I aren't even dating.