What do you do when you sabotage any thought of happiness for yourself?

Happiness is a choice. The negative thoughts that are making you feel miserable are also choices. As people we are able to choose our thinking, it is a skill that needs to be exercised. Right now your negative thinking is just a bad habits. Allow yourself to have a negative thought for 2 min. then tell yourself what is great about your life and about you. Make a list of 100 things you have be grateful for. Start smallk, example you can be grateful to Yahoo answers. If you want you can read about this, there are many books on the market oncerning this problem.