I need a therapist or a psychiatrists help!! ppppllleeeaaseee?

okay so i am severly bi polar! like every little thing make sme mad and i hate it! i also have post traumatic stress disorder and like my boyfriend and all my friends cant really take being around me anymore cause of the fact that i dont know how to control my bipolar! we cant afford the medicine or a therapist! PLEASE HELP ME, PLEASE